I honestly don’t know how much more of you I can take until my breaking point because I think my breaking point is close.
I am so ready to get out of this house. I just wish he would understand for once. It’s not lollipops and rainbows like you think it is.
Tomorrow is going to be the hardest day of my life.
Break down number 2 for the day. What I would do with just 30 more seconds with you. Just for a hug and for you to tell me that you love me and that everything will be okay. You always make things better and I would give everything just to hear you say everything will be fine just one more time.
Had my first melt down today. I can’t believe your gone. I can’t believe that I just can’t drive over to your house anymore when I need you or call you up and go to Toms for a girls day and then surprise the kids by picking them up early from school. I can’t believe my best friend is gone.
Panic attacks. Random crying. Not wanting to talk. So is life. This sucks.
My heart literally hurts. I have felt way too much in a short period of time. It’s one feeling when your friend has cancer but its a completely different feeling when it’s a family member. I don’t want to feel anymore.
It’s been rough. The end of last week was rough, this weekend was rough and today was rough. I just want sleep but that’s not going to happen.
I keep imagining this is it, that this could be it for her and I keep freaking out. I don’t know what I would do without her. I don’t know how I could live without her. I don’t know if I could.